i Sang

I sang~
I sang to GOD help me to break it truth.
I sang to GOD to turn me back what i use to be and what GOD want me to be.
I sang to GOD pray for all my family and friends be happy and be healthy.
I sang to GOD pray for the poor and the lost child.
I sang to GOD to be rice in my soul.
I sang to GOD be positive always.
I sang to GOD i just want to be a simple girl that love a person normal.
I sang to GOD take care of my family well.
I sang to GOD to just say Thank you GOD.
I sang~

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i forgot

I forgot how many month we have not been together. the work had taken all my time and i let it be. and I'm trying to fell up all the non-using time. helping the church, going for service. hanging out with friends. making more new friends. is actually more new guys friends. Watching movie with them, dinner and etc... i do enjoy my self in church. i found back what my soul want. from singing to Lard, praying. but hanging with guys... i can't really feel that... :S i don't even let them hold my hand!

Listen to Sara Bareilles- breathe again, reading back my blog how angry i am with you, how sad how emotion i am with you. still break my heart when look back what did you done to my heart. i admitted one part of my heart still waiting for you, a wait might kill me for wasting my time or even my afford. and you have to admit you taking advantage of me. from scolding me for NOTHING till accept me back as a FRIEND.
and i'm 'stupid' to accept you back as a 'friend'... how stupid as a human. how stupid we make our life is, how stupid we are, we make things so confused...

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Attitude

"A black taxi driver drove a mom n child, the child ask y every1 skin color differs. Mom reply, god afraid 1 color is too dull, so he created all kinds of colors, make the world colorful, allowing us to luv each other. Upon arrival, the dr...iver doesnt wanna charge them, he said, i once asked the same question, my mom said we r black n born 2b lower level than others. If my mom couldve said the same like u, i might hav a different turnout. I'm not taking any money because i wish you can help to spread the words..."different" exists so we could luv each other~
epilogue: when we face different things n people, our first attitude is always to discriminate, but this will make the gap bigger between people. If, we accept a person, we get to learn a different perspective; accepting an incident, can enrich our souls. Try to luv everything's different, cos that's how we were taught about luv.
Thank you KS for translate it. 

Not Afraid C3

asked for new year.

First time spending New year eve at the church with a cool eater gang. well~ as far as i know i need a place to go and i don't really want to get drunk again, get my self a dammn good dunk time in Christmas day, ( hope you guys did too!!!) so~ play safe why not join them for some peace praying. and...of cause backing them up for the back up singer again.but I'm enjoyed what i sang and top of the stage. starting from 7pm+ till count down. starting from stepping in the new church till walking out. Dear GOD. Thank you. for the 364 days completed without regret. learn allot and still will continually learning in life, got my self two vacation too. will still continually pray for family and friends good health and happy, will still continually pray for my self be a better person and looking forward in future and every things.
Not sure what more experiences i will going to go through. and how much more love I'm going to give and receive. but i do know one think for sure. i will prepare every thing when the time comes. will prepare this time.

Keep on asking and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask, RECEIVES. Everyone who seeks, FINDS. And to everyone who knocks, the DOOR WILL BE OPENED.