i can do it!

been pass few weeks. family, friends, even guy friends that hurting me with all those word and question i never really think about it. from the beginning just a normal asking till their really coming out all those word that making my self confuse. yes!!confuse.. is a yes? is a no! every day...every single day...phone, sms...msn..friend asking again, family question again and again and again..till last few night i starting to cry. how?? who can just bring me out of here, where is he when i really need him? is it like their say about him? where is he? all the question coming out from my mind... and i try to be strong. I'm not choosing the wrong person. his good, just too busy. then the question pop out in my mind again. busy till 1 sms also can't come out? I'm scare to talk to them and i scare to let him know. i really don't know how to talk back. i only can tell my self. he is busy. i can handle them. is not a big problem. just your fiends. they care about you. that's why they ask. but i need support too. where to i find support that really no one ...really no one will support me, my mentally is making me crazy...I'll cry till sleep. every morning looking at the mirror, hey..his there. i just need to wait only. that all. smile to my parent starting telling lie saying he got call, he got sms. his didn't forgot me.
but...i really miss him alot...every single night when all the question coming out again and playing with my mind. i really need him beside me and help me fight it together, not just me alone. i know he love me. just he to busy now only. that all...