The Wanted - Heart Vacancy (Official)

I hear your heart cry for love,
But you won't let me make it right.
You were hurt, but I decided,
That you were worth the fight.
Every night, you lock up,
You won't let me come inside.
But the look in your eyes,
As I can turn the tide.

I hear your heart cry for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be.
If loneliness would move out,
I'd fill the vacancy.

Falling (Original Song) - Tyler Ward Feat. Alex G

I think i fall in love again. just hope this time it's work.

Papaveri con la sac à poche

Sara Bareilles - Uncharted

Superman - Five For Fighting (Boyce Avenue cover) on iTunes

I think i miss you

Here in your arms acoustic - Hellogoodbye
I like where we are,
When we drive,
in your car
I like where we are...
Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch..
Here

Well you are the one,
The one
that lies close to me
Whispers "Hello, I miss you quite terrible"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else i could be,
But here in your arms

I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me
I like where you sleep...
Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
cause our lips can touch...
Here...

Well you are the one,
The one that lies close to me
Whispers " Hello, I miss you quite terrible"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else i could be,
But here in your arms,

Cause our lips, can touch
Here...

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terrible"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else i could be
But here in your arms.

Skylar Grey -- Love The Way You Lie (Original Demo)

Solo Por Ti

Dime qué haría de mis días,
quien soñaría si no estas.
Cómo podría respirar el aire,lejos de ti.
Cuando no estas aquí.

Solo por ti,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría
contigo la eternidad.
Solo por tí...

Dime lo que siente tu alma,
dime por qué vive en mi.
No se pero voy muriendo lento
Solo sin tí.
Triste me quedo así...

Solo por tí,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría
contigo la eternidad.
Solo por tí.

Te daré mil poesías,
las escribiré para tí.
Cantaré mis melodías,
con la música de tu alma...

Solo por tí,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría,
contigo la eternidad...

Solo por ti,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría,
amar por la eternidad...
Yo solo,solo por tí...

Tell me what would make my day
who would dream if you're not.
How could breathe the air, away from you.

When you're not here.
 Only for you, walk
in infinity.
Would face
with you forever.
Only for you ...

Tell me what you feel in your soul,
tell me why he lives in me.
But I'm not dying slow
Lonely without you.
I'm so sad ...

Only for you, walk
in infinity.
Would face
with you forever.
Only for you.

I'll give you a thousand poems,
I will write to you.
I will sing my melodies,
with music of your soul ...

Only for you, walk
in infinity.
Would face,
eternity with you ...

Only for you, walk
in infinity.
Would face,
love for eternity ...
I just, just for you ...

have a great day

Night turns to whatever we want.
We’re young enough to say.
This has gotta be the good life.
Sometimes there’s bullshit that don’t work now.
We are god of stories but please tell me.
...What there is to complain about.
When you’re happy like a fool.
Let it take you over.
When everything is out.
You gotta take it in.

A journey for my self

Someone say when you fall in love, the journey start, but guess some journey will end when the love not belong to you. is confuse when  finally you thought you found someone but the person already 'been taken'.
Learn allot in this trip. A point of view to love someone just give, and never consider to hold back, never think of any back up plan to save it back.

 I'm still remember my first, to remind my self back. His not prepare and yet~ he never been prepare any thing. I cant say I'm right, just maybe that time we just not there yet. like i say before, time will not heal, just we lock the memory and we don't look back.

 I learn something thankful is this trip. this gentle friend of my say that to me : you need to know how to take the 'words' personally. Words can kill a person, but if you strong enough, you will be one of them to know how to 'love' is so simple to say it out, but is also so strong to make it, to build the strong in you. This gentle friend of my, he teach me allot, allot more then i don't expect. Greedy yes, because i really do want to know more, to see to search to be sponge just keep on absorb.

 Another topic we talk about is marriage. easy way to use name. me = kitty, gentle friend = Master
Master : so? when are you getting marrie?
Kitty : when i find the right person.
Master : don't search too long, the good one will taken out by other girls and because not all willing to wait.
maybe his is prepare for marriage, well~ for the age of him yes, and for the age of my is a yes too. which girl not wish for a right one, a soul mate to take care of each other, a family of own, a new born child~... non perfect, i don't which for a perfect one, i don't which for a rich one ( well~ if he rich that is a bonus :d ) just maybe not my time yet, first love his not prepare, second one kind of..., the third person already been taken. ( you know who i'm taking ^^ )  
Kitty : i do think about marriege
Master : but when you think of it mean you not prepare it!
no, that not the right way to say about it, im not sure how's the man think when his getting prepare for marriage or even most of the girls think but for me. I do, I do think about it, like i say, from my first love and i'm the age of 26, i prepare my self for every things, from house, car, future and etc... just maybe the plan doesn't work till the end. i try, try so hard till my friends saying not worth it, try so hard to please... guess God always got his way to guide his child. is time to let go, is already more then a year, is time to let go.
 Is so easy to fall in love, but is also so easy to broke apart too. I know i will find someone who will appreciate me one day, just need to be patience, i'm already waiting for 29 years no harm waiting few more month or years I guess, just hope God don't let me wait too long.

 The night before my last day in this trip, i can't stop my self crying in the room, crying out loud since no one beside me, crying till i feel the pain in my heart again. i feel my heart been broke to pieces again, i don't know why why i will feel this way, this kind of strong emotion feeling tonight, i know I'm kind of sensitive person. but has be awhile i don't have this kind of feeling. i thought i closed my heart. am I?
 Losing my emotional again this morning, friends smsing but reply with tear. can't stop it~ might as well just let it be. I will closed my self again, protect my heart again alone. going back with a new knowledge with a pieces of my are left behind. A little puzzle had left it in this trip. think no one will notice it. can't hold back, so~ might as well just let it be~ that me~ can't hold back any more right? Is an odd feeling how easily i trust a person, a way of 'smell' i know i can trust this man for ever.

 Emotional day of my, another day I my self will forgotten it by few month. maybe~ two more years what will i see my self when i read back this article?  maybe will be totally different till the end, never know, no one will know only God will know the answer.

 Rushing for something you cant rush is totally out of the way. I will keep to my self this little secret of my. a pieces of my he stole away.

is this call complicated?

gb

i Sang

I sang~
I sang to GOD help me to break it truth.
I sang to GOD to turn me back what i use to be and what GOD want me to be.
I sang to GOD pray for all my family and friends be happy and be healthy.
I sang to GOD pray for the poor and the lost child.
I sang to GOD to be rice in my soul.
I sang to GOD be positive always.
I sang to GOD i just want to be a simple girl that love a person normal.
I sang to GOD take care of my family well.
I sang to GOD to just say Thank you GOD.
I sang~

http://vimeo.com/18692305

i forgot

I forgot how many month we have not been together. the work had taken all my time and i let it be. and I'm trying to fell up all the non-using time. helping the church, going for service. hanging out with friends. making more new friends. is actually more new guys friends. Watching movie with them, dinner and etc... i do enjoy my self in church. i found back what my soul want. from singing to Lard, praying. but hanging with guys... i can't really feel that... :S i don't even let them hold my hand!

Listen to Sara Bareilles- breathe again, reading back my blog how angry i am with you, how sad how emotion i am with you. still break my heart when look back what did you done to my heart. i admitted one part of my heart still waiting for you, a wait might kill me for wasting my time or even my afford. and you have to admit you taking advantage of me. from scolding me for NOTHING till accept me back as a FRIEND.
and i'm 'stupid' to accept you back as a 'friend'... how stupid as a human. how stupid we make our life is, how stupid we are, we make things so confused...

picture from. http://www.joanvicentcanto.com/blog/

Attitude

"A black taxi driver drove a mom n child, the child ask y every1 skin color differs. Mom reply, god afraid 1 color is too dull, so he created all kinds of colors, make the world colorful, allowing us to luv each other. Upon arrival, the dr...iver doesnt wanna charge them, he said, i once asked the same question, my mom said we r black n born 2b lower level than others. If my mom couldve said the same like u, i might hav a different turnout. I'm not taking any money because i wish you can help to spread the words..."different" exists so we could luv each other~
epilogue: when we face different things n people, our first attitude is always to discriminate, but this will make the gap bigger between people. If, we accept a person, we get to learn a different perspective; accepting an incident, can enrich our souls. Try to luv everything's different, cos that's how we were taught about luv.
Thank you KS for translate it. 

Not Afraid C3

asked for new year.

First time spending New year eve at the church with a cool eater gang. well~ as far as i know i need a place to go and i don't really want to get drunk again, get my self a dammn good dunk time in Christmas day, ( hope you guys did too!!!) so~ play safe why not join them for some peace praying. and...of cause backing them up for the back up singer again.but I'm enjoyed what i sang and top of the stage. starting from 7pm+ till count down. starting from stepping in the new church till walking out. Dear GOD. Thank you. for the 364 days completed without regret. learn allot and still will continually learning in life, got my self two vacation too. will still continually pray for family and friends good health and happy, will still continually pray for my self be a better person and looking forward in future and every things.
Not sure what more experiences i will going to go through. and how much more love I'm going to give and receive. but i do know one think for sure. i will prepare every thing when the time comes. will prepare this time.

Keep on asking and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask, RECEIVES. Everyone who seeks, FINDS. And to everyone who knocks, the DOOR WILL BE OPENED.