You!!!

Do you know i still like you allot? Do you know i always think of you? Do you know allot of stuff i focus my self to do it because of you? Do you know i feel hurt when you not looking at me? Do you know i feel hurt when you not talking any more. Do you know when you walk in frond of me I feel lost when just looking at your back? Do you know i feel more hurt you just let it be. i really don't know what you think of me, and i scare to ask again. i scare you will never talk to me. and sometimes do you know you make me feel I'm like no brain. :( when you talking with me. Do you know sometimes when you answer my question, you make me feel so sad. no..i don't think you know. care about you and concern about you is the only way i know. and i try to be a better girl, but i think you didn't see it, do you know my family asking me I'm like a girl finally? ya~ because i always act as a boy, because no one really concert about how i act, is who am i. but i try to make my self become more 'girl sensitive', but i think you don't notice it.
i like vege you don't like it. i like fish you like chicken, i drink water you drink kids stuff. and some more is all sugar drink. you asking me do i wear high hell, yes i wear, but i don't dare to say scare i taller then you if i wear it. and i remember you saying about a girl 'not work out because she too tall', dinner time always thinking what do order for you and not for me. i don't dare to eat after 8pm because i got tummy problem, i still eat with you because i knew you didn't have your dinner. but shirt thing... i still fall for you, and is hurt when you really not looking back I'm there. i know you been stress up with you work,hey..~~ who's not, but do you hear me bullshit in frond of you allot? no way. because i don't dare too and if i do also you wont really listen. i try to share my working part with you, and as a friend also can give me a comment but your answer only a 'up to you'. 'up to you'!!! 'up to you'!!! hurt allot when hearing that from a person i really like, really hurt. and i think all your friends is calling your name, but is me calling not your name. i try to open my life to let you see who i am. but allot of things is you acting dumb or just ignore it or you wont say it. i don't know. i really don't know. how can i know you don't let me see your world?i'm blur but i'm not dump and yes. you told me before 'we just friend'................feel like a broken string. if fix i think is only me my self can fix it back. is it??