still Here

“I haven’t changed, I’m still me. The circumstances have changed and I have to keep myself strong. But I’m still here for you like i always was.”
Still here, like i always was

hopeless me

Stupid of me. I wish i didn’t have to feel this way. My heart aches. I notice things most people don’t. I think about what you do and what you don’t do. They say action speak louder than words. Some people avoid trying to think about it. I can’t. These thoughts, they haunt me every second of the day. When i sleep, they appear in my dreams. Sometimes i wish i could forget.

There are things i wish i could say, but i can’t. And there are things i keep so far down, i forget to let them out sometimes. Today they did, and it’s been a while. It’s been weeks since i allowed myself to feel properly and they all just came rushing back. And yet, i still don’t know how to fix things.

I can’t even express how i feel because it sounds pathetic. I just .. don’t know anymore.

hoping for something to happen

• What makes it hard for you to let go? Is it because you’re still hoping for something to happen? Is that why some people can’t let go? Because somewhere deep down, they’re still hoping for some miracle to happen? Or maybe because they’re too in love to let go?

• I understand now why people feel safe when they’re with their partner. Because home is where the heart is. And their heart is with that someone. Therefore, home is wherever that person is. That’s how you feel safe. Makes sense right?

• Waiting. What’s the point of that. What’s the point in waiting when you know that nothing is going to happen. It’s the same concept with the whole not letting go. You’re waiting because you’re hoping for something to happen. And if you know it’s not going to, why wait?

• I think the secret of moving on ( As much as everybody denies it ) is getting someone else. Really, that’s the one sure way you can get your mind off things. They make you feel wanted like you did before. Even if it’s just a rebound. It helps. ( but now, i still hoping for.)
  

the first year

Today is the the day if back pass half year, I will be the most excited girl friend of all. because this is the day i be waiting for to celebrated with you. is a day that our first year together. How wonderful is this if I'm writing with happens, but guess not. i still miss you, love you. every night i pray for GOD to guide me, what should I do? How to i heal my pain? yes, you hurt me hard this time. very hard. but yes. stupid of me is, I'm still in love with you. every where i go, i hope you beside me.
Going to SG is unexpected, because i really hope to forgot about you, forgot about how deep i love you, forgot about all the thing you done for me, forgot about how you look at me, how you kiss me, how you hold my hand. crying with no sound again. pass 3 weeks, wake up at 4am+ and starting looking at the sky till the sky shine, till the time i need to get ready to work.
i wish i can hate you, because if i hate you, i will more easy to move on. but guess not. I try, i try very hard. but still...
I still love you.

亲爱的自己：

以后我们要自己爱自己，没人在意我们的存在，哪怕只

是卑微的在乎。自己要学会自私，学会霸道，学的很坏，习惯无聊，习惯孤单，习惯受伤。
　　
我们不要悲伤，要努力的活，比以前更好，因为只有我们自己。骄傲的活，好好爱自己，没人会心疼你。
　　
亲爱的自己，以后就是一个人了，一个人走，一个人睡，一个人听歌，一个人散步，一个人笑，一个人哭，一个人卑微的活在这个高傲的世界里。不必在意那麽多事，高兴的心态，永远放在第一位。
　　
亲爱的自己，学会自己心疼自己。给自己买好多好多鞋子，走着，去很远的地方，直到自己看不到自己。没有人知道你的存在，所以要自己活在通往寂寞的路上。
　　
亲爱的自己，要学会享受。自己戴着耳麦听情歌，把声音调到最大，轻轻的跟着和。不要哭，只要笑，笑到泪流满面，没人会关心你。自己懂的这快乐。
　　
亲爱的自己，要学会放弃。有些缘份注定要失去，有些缘份注定不会有好结果的，爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人，一定要去好好爱她。如果没有爱意，那就放弃，否则对不起自己。
　　
亲爱的自己，学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，自己可以活的很漂亮，笑给自己看，哭给自己听。聪明一点，不一定让别人了解你，但你一定了解别人。
　　
亲爱的自己，难过了，就蹲下来抱抱自己。不要发脾气，这世界你不欠谁的，别人也不欠你。找个角抱着自己，流泪不需要出声，哭过之后还是自己，还要快乐的生活。
　　
亲爱的自己，不要依赖别人，记住，谁都不是谁的谁。要有希望不要绝望。也不要轻易向别人许下承诺，因有许下的承诺欠下的债。
　　
亲爱的自己，学会调理感情，不要让感情蒙主眼睛，如果那样，哭也哭不出来了。把爱情踩在脚下，它不值得我们怎样。不要回忆，断了的风筝就让它飞走吧。
　　
亲爱的自己，千万不要背叛自己，全世界就算只有你自己，也要懂得自己，爱自己。做最真实的自己，不管现实多麽残酷，自己永远要保护自己。
　　
亲爱的自己。
　　
祝你幸福。
　　
自己­

算是在自我安慰吧？呵呵...