i know what to do, but dont know how to do

I'm breaking down, but i trying not to break down infant of you.
I'm crying, but I'm trying not to cry infront of you any more.
i want to share my problem with you, you can act like a listener, but I'm trying not to any more, because you are saying I'm too emotional and not strong enough to handle my self.
you saying i tight you up, but i only seeing you ones a week...and only just half a day. just last few week i starting send you home every night. and that only cause 15 minutes or maybe 1 hour if we are going to have dinner together. you say your friend ask you how many times you seeing me, but why your friend didn't ask another way how many hours spending together? I though most of the couple do that. is it?? sending the love ones home, having a late dinner when just finish work. sharing problem, know more of each other. is it? what i want?? i just want you...no need to see each other every day since you don't like it,I'm ok with that... but at list a call? just to say good night? we not far, but sometimes i looking at you, you still have the wall there. you don't let me in. are you?

一段感情会在不同的阶段而改变，双方都应该为这段感情负责任和付出，最重要是大家的步伐是一致，如果另一半比你走得慢的话，你为什么不稍微放慢脚步然后牵着他的手一步一步的走下去？不要觉得懒惰为对方做点事，其实一个小动作或者是一句贴心的话都是你们感情上的小甜点。
感情就好像在煮一道菜，信任就是开胃菜，容忍和体谅就是主菜，贴心就是不可缺少的甜品。祝读着这篇文章的你永远幸福

i read this article in someone blog. is say. relationship will always go wrong if dint have the heart to take care. partner have to responsibly and give out, not just take. important part is 'walking', if other partner 'walk' slow, why not you wait and hold your partner hand 'walk' together? do not lazy to think and do something for your partner, because every single small little thing and words from you will always make it better.
relationship is like a menu, trust is the appetizer, Tolerance & Pardonis/Considerate the main course, and for the dessert is caring, do not lack without the dessert.

know what you want, but do you know what i want?
i always want my partner have the shoulder to let me lie my head there. and say...every thing will be fine.
oh~ well...pillow is my best friend again, having bath will be my emo place again. and i though i can change to a better release place...and share with a person, not the wall.