tired

I’m starting tired, I’m starting think twice. I try to build the house strong by my self since you always busy, but guess don’t work out this way. Even you not there for me, I try to be strong alone but didn’t work out ideal. I start to laugh with tears in the night. I’m so silly, and stupid. Always though that you see me, pretend you always be there for me, just you too busy with you work.

Pain…not the first time to be pain,but this time my heart break…my mind playing negative game with me, is all negative. I try to think positive, but I can’t do it by my self any more, because is you who break the trust. You break it. The promises from the first time we been together. You break it. How about future? The promises you promise me? Will you break again? When every time I tell you how I feel, you always answer back ‘yes…yes…yes...’ I smile at my self. You fool! Stupid women, how many time you want to give excuse for him. He got the time to reply back the other girl, but how about you? stupid women, loser. Your own boy friend doesn’t care about you going in hospital, "I'm bz" that how you write. He didn’t even notice your change, your mood, he close your phone call!!

I’m so enervation now. But I try to ready my self for every single thing that we will face true now and then, I won’t be able to forget the things that left me broken but I can try. but not alone, but yet…
I feel alone. Looking at my hand again.