hopeless me

Stupid of me. I wish i didn’t have to feel this way. My heart aches. I notice things most people don’t. I think about what you do and what you don’t do. They say action speak louder than words. Some people avoid trying to think about it. I can’t. These thoughts, they haunt me every second of the day. When i sleep, they appear in my dreams. Sometimes i wish i could forget.

There are things i wish i could say, but i can’t. And there are things i keep so far down, i forget to let them out sometimes. Today they did, and it’s been a while. It’s been weeks since i allowed myself to feel properly and they all just came rushing back. And yet, i still don’t know how to fix things.

I can’t even express how i feel because it sounds pathetic. I just .. don’t know anymore.