Mistake again~
Can’t be a pig for last few week, or maybe more, didn’t count it but I know more then 3 week. Maybe the work, maybe starting getting old can’t sleep, or maybe thinking him too much, hhmm…..not a good think.
This coming Tuesday will be going a short trip with few friends in Pulau Perhentian, few nice close friends. I know will be havoc trip since they already told who is going and think will happen, not a big deal, just for me I’m thinking going there to clear my mind and think of what will I do when I coming back and face what I need to face. I can say I’m not strong in relationship, I don’t know how to act, how to feel and how to really know what he want, I don’t know how to talk that’s why I think I hurt his feeling from the payment that second date (for me) that my friends told me no suppose to say and act like that. Hey...Sorry~… :( really. I know how blur I am, what came in to my mind will just shoot out from my mouth, that why I’m still learning, ‘how to talk’. I didn’t have that much EX like you!! So I can’t learn much stuff like you.
When I did some think wrong I always look in to my hands, am I done the wrong think again? Yes. I think I did it again, from few weeks past not suppose to talk with boss what I want from her, and not suppose to talk out how I feel for him. Talk always is easy, but doing it out will be another stuff ‘are you sure you doing it the right way’?
Listen to collide, nothing else matters all this song, feel the way I feel about him now. All I think about is him, walking around is looking his stuff, looking the clock rocking is saying about his name. I’m in deep shit. Yes I am. Never know I will feel for a person that deep. I never tell any one that. OK...just 3 good friends of my. Day go by I’m thinking him more and more, smile from my face when thinking of him, day go by when I know I’m happy I found him. But I know I need to give him some time to think. Maybe some day we will be together, or maybe not. Am looking at my hand again and saying is up to him, is damm.. hurt
The story I need to tell him, the word I need him to know. Is clear. Like I say, am not smart in this stuff. So don’t tall me how to act like normal girl suppose to say and wait for you to say. I just telling out what I feel and that is already making my eye red...hey...i still a girl. From a girl view, I still got the shy part and feel lost. And I’m NOT YOUR EX!!!
And…I am telling you now. I’m ready to love somebody, somebody I hope is you. 16th May 2009 Saturday, my fly will reach at 9am…I think. And I hope to see you. If not, I know what to do. Hurt me, but don’t hurt me long. So I know I need to let go.
Can’t be a pig for last few week, or maybe more, didn’t count it but I know more then 3 week. Maybe the work, maybe starting getting old can’t sleep, or maybe thinking him too much, hhmm…..not a good think.
This coming Tuesday will be going a short trip with few friends in Pulau Perhentian, few nice close friends. I know will be havoc trip since they already told who is going and think will happen, not a big deal, just for me I’m thinking going there to clear my mind and think of what will I do when I coming back and face what I need to face. I can say I’m not strong in relationship, I don’t know how to act, how to feel and how to really know what he want, I don’t know how to talk that’s why I think I hurt his feeling from the payment that second date (for me) that my friends told me no suppose to say and act like that. Hey...Sorry~… :( really. I know how blur I am, what came in to my mind will just shoot out from my mouth, that why I’m still learning, ‘how to talk’. I didn’t have that much EX like you!! So I can’t learn much stuff like you.
When I did some think wrong I always look in to my hands, am I done the wrong think again? Yes. I think I did it again, from few weeks past not suppose to talk with boss what I want from her, and not suppose to talk out how I feel for him. Talk always is easy, but doing it out will be another stuff ‘are you sure you doing it the right way’?
Listen to collide, nothing else matters all this song, feel the way I feel about him now. All I think about is him, walking around is looking his stuff, looking the clock rocking is saying about his name. I’m in deep shit. Yes I am. Never know I will feel for a person that deep. I never tell any one that. OK...just 3 good friends of my. Day go by I’m thinking him more and more, smile from my face when thinking of him, day go by when I know I’m happy I found him. But I know I need to give him some time to think. Maybe some day we will be together, or maybe not. Am looking at my hand again and saying is up to him, is damm.. hurt
The story I need to tell him, the word I need him to know. Is clear. Like I say, am not smart in this stuff. So don’t tall me how to act like normal girl suppose to say and wait for you to say. I just telling out what I feel and that is already making my eye red...hey...i still a girl. From a girl view, I still got the shy part and feel lost. And I’m NOT YOUR EX!!!
And…I am telling you now. I’m ready to love somebody, somebody I hope is you. 16th May 2009 Saturday, my fly will reach at 9am…I think. And I hope to see you. If not, I know what to do. Hurt me, but don’t hurt me long. So I know I need to let go.
