This trip is out of my mind, didn't really think going in May, but yes~ i need a trip to clear my mind, but going there only lost my self more and more and thinking of him more. really making me up sad...
From Tuesday night flying to my friend kampung already making my eye red again and don't know why, just know i feel sad and feel alone again. why i have that kind of stupid feeling about him, and why is him, why not another guy.
Going Pulau Perhentian is my friends ideal and telling me get out of the work. Is been very very long time didn't really have a clear look what i have, what i have in me. sea side always make me more relax, I'm not a nature girl i truly admirable that all the people they can sleep every where. but i can't. toilet is out side, no light, not hot water. no TV i still can leave with it, but toilet... is my really really nightmare. making business in the morning and the so call 'little' animal' just crowing in frond of you. i think you will sure stone there and willing to cry, because i am... and when you having shower, the lizard are looking at you from the top and is not a 'little' one. is really dam scary. night time still cold when not air corn or fan, because is in the island. sea side, wind, and trees..there is already making you having a good fresh air.
night bar at there is a really good relax place for chatting, just sit there and looking at the sky, the star will making you smile, and having fun with all the people there. but drinking part, please do drink beer there.
Going in the deep blue sea to watch the shark and sea turtle is the best think i have in this short trip. just that few moment is already make clear view what ever i need to face when coming back. allot of colourful fish that we normally see in TV or magazine too.
Going Pulau Perhentian is my friends ideal and telling me get out of the work. Is been very very long time didn't really have a clear look what i have, what i have in me. sea side always make me more relax, I'm not a nature girl i truly admirable that all the people they can sleep every where. but i can't. toilet is out side, no light, not hot water. no TV i still can leave with it, but toilet... is my really really nightmare. making business in the morning and the so call 'little' animal' just crowing in frond of you. i think you will sure stone there and willing to cry, because i am... and when you having shower, the lizard are looking at you from the top and is not a 'little' one. is really dam scary. night time still cold when not air corn or fan, because is in the island. sea side, wind, and trees..there is already making you having a good fresh air.
night bar at there is a really good relax place for chatting, just sit there and looking at the sky, the star will making you smile, and having fun with all the people there. but drinking part, please do drink beer there.
Going in the deep blue sea to watch the shark and sea turtle is the best think i have in this short trip. just that few moment is already make clear view what ever i need to face when coming back. allot of colourful fish that we normally see in TV or magazine too.
But is end. Is very fast.., my trip has over again. will go again some day. but yes~ am enjoy my self, but coming back to KL, i think I'm making my heart pain again. he's not there, and when waiting time, i know when i wait longer will still the same. yes~ i still like him so much, don't ask me why, i really don't know why. just know is him. from coming back KL and trying going out with another guy just to clear it out the feeling. and yes. is still him the one I'm thinking off, but is hurting me when he is not reply my sms or msn, and abit making me feel cheap. don't dare to call him, scare will more making him run away. but i think i know what to do. you want friend. then friend. just that... friends.
and i'm alone again.
